I’m finally coming down cloud 9. Reflecting on the beginning of the year.
Embracing the overwhelming
presence of conflicting emotions. This month, I am celebrating a milestone.
It’s been 10 years since I’ve moved to NY.
What was supposed to be a year turned into 2, 3, 5, 7 and the big 10. I can call myself a New Yorker, I have my business that supports people and dancers in restoring their perspective on their bodies, training, and nutrition.
I’m a dancer, classically trained, who had the chance to study in some of the most prestigious dance institutions. But I have painfully suffered from my body image, navigating injuries and weight change during my training.
I remember when I only wanted to spend a day without hating my body or fixating on food.
And this day came. It is here, now.
It’s been my life for the past couple of years. My head can now focus on life, on what truly matters, and I finally can have gentleness with myself.
It took me years to see and understand I needed help, but, with the maturity, I see the pain and silent rage eating me alive.
I see it, and in which ever situation you are, know that you not bond to this perception.
I’m now my best ally, 98% of the time. Yes, let’s be real, it is though some days to keep a positive self talk.
But I’m now celebrating this journey; it’s doable, and it fills me with constant joy.
I remember the day I told myself that I would be happy for the rest of my life if I didn’t hurt myself or feel guilt when eating; I would be happy, content. And this day is here.
I write this as I’m having a more complicated day to remind myself that the road is long but that it leads to the destination of your choice, yes, you have a choice, so pick your destination wisely.
Now, I am hungry for life and ready to move to new horizons.
And to help others go through the same transformation.
Tool box: Celebrate every milestone. The small, like the big. Celebrating change, your achievements and all the efforts you have been putting in to feel better in your life, body and spirit are worth celebrating, even if you’re still far from where you want to be.
So happy anniversary.